Dean McDermott QUITS True Tori, Laments Affair, Admits Suicidal Thoughts

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Dean McDermott announced Wednesday that he has quit True Tori after almost two seasons of cringe-worthy TV therapy with wife Tori Spelling on Lifetime.

“We have five more shows left. I can’t do this,” he tells Access Hollywood.

Dean and Tori Photo

“I can’t keep opening the vein, opening my soul and sharing my feelings and thoughts and demons with the world. I don’t watch it. I can’t," Dean adds.

"It’s really difficult. I can’t do it anymore, for my soul.”

Gotta be rough. So what does this even mean?

It's not clear if Dean is contracted to film more episodes and is refusing to do so, or if production has already wrapped and his "quitting" is just a PR stunt.

We would not put that past the couple.

Both of them are clearly losing it, though. True Tori Season 2 Episode 3 proved that their union is perhaps even more frayed and unstable than originally believed.

McDermott and Spelling started shooting the train wreck of a reality show shortly after he cheated on her with Emily Goodhand in December 2013.

If you watch True Tori online, you know it chronicles the couple's increasingly fragile marriage and Dean's struggles with depression and substance abuse.

Absurd True Tori quotes aside, he's been in a bad, bad place.

“The fact that I cheated on my wife, I wish never happened,” he admitted. “I wish my alcohol and drug use hadn't gotten out of control. I still love her to death."

"That's why we're still together. I almost lost everything, everything that means anything to me. I don't want to ever do that again. I don't ever want to be in that dark place again."

McDermott admits having suicidal thoughts, and claims he wanted to get away from his problems so badly that he came close to pulling the trigger, literally.

"I was put on a 5150 at the UCLA psych ward ... [My son] Liam had a performance and I didn't want to miss that performance… I had plans that night to do it."

“I was driving around in my truck with a loaded 9 mm."

Since then, he has worked on a things and made progress, but says he can't go on with the show (whatever that means, or however long his retirement lasts).

“I hold out a lot of hope,” he said. “If you don't have hope what do you have? I love this woman, regardless of what I've done. I love her and want to be with her."

"I want to grow old with her at this moment she feels the exact same way."

Here's hoping.

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True Tori Quotes

"What's keeping you in this marriage?" - True Tori producer to Tori, who cried and said that when there are children involved, you look at it differently (on reality television if at all possible)

"I was feeling really bad about my potato-making skills." - Tori, after Dean felt that she had microwaved a potato incorrectly, sending her plunging into an existential crisis and a state of instant self-loathing