Ashley Martson Confesses: I Still Love Jay Smith ...

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90 Day Fiance fans have learned the truly gross details of Jay Smith's first cheating scandal.

Some aspects of Jay's more recent cheating scandal remain under wraps ... for now.

But Ashley Martson has spoken out, not about what Jay did with his penis, but about what what he did to her heart.

After he broke her heart into a million pieces, you would think that she would hate him.

Instead, Ashley says that it's quite the opposite: despite everything, she still loves him.

As you can see below, she explains why she divorced him anyway.

1. Ashley has made a stunning announcement

Ashley has made a stunning announcement
She ... still loves Jay? To explain why that's such a shocker, we need to think of all that she's been through -- all that Jay has put her through.

2. Their marriage started off with a disaster

Their marriage started off with a disaster
Just days after their wedding, Jay downloaded Tinder and started chatting with other women. Ashley caught him video chatting with a girl and inviting her to "his" (Ashley's) house!

3. But eventually, she stuck with him

But eventually, she stuck with him
It took ages for them to work past that cheating incident, as we have seen on 90 Day Fiance: Happily Ever After? But they stuck together and remained married for months and months.

4. In April, it all fell apart

In April, it all fell apart
Ashley took to her Instagram Stories to strongly suggest that Jay had cheated on her again. She also mockingly suggested that he would have to go home to Jamaica.

5. Their breakup was confirmed by a third party

Their breakup was confirmed by a third party
Larissa referring to Ashley as single then prompted Ashley to confirm the split -- in good humor

6. She's referring to this famous quote

She's referring to this famous quote
We wish that Larissa's line had been a Game of Thrones spoiler. Sadly, the words that she yelled at her erstwhile husband and his family suggested a better ending than the show actually got. But that's beside the point!

7. Ashley accused Jay of cheating ... again

Ashley accused Jay of cheating ... again
It even showed up on her divorce filing, where she accused Jay of adultery on page 5.

8. Ashley even exposed the alleged mistress

Ashley even exposed the alleged mistress
Ashley accused a woman of being a homewrecker after the girl in question reached out to her.

9. Ashley was what you'd call "Big Mad"

Ashley was what you'd call "Big Mad"
She accused the woman of being a "homewrecker." Real talk: there's no such thing, not really. If your husband cheats, HE wrecked the home. As far as we know, this woman didn't know Ashley. Honestly, who KNOWS what Jay may have told her. The last time he cheated, the high school senior he was chatting with had no idea that he was married.

10. Even so, they did a photoshoot together

Even so, they did a photoshoot together
Planned seven months in advance, the paid wedding photoshot for Ashley and Jay came at an awkward time, but they powered on through the experience anyway.

11. Fans seemed REALLY confused by the photos

Fans seemed REALLY confused by the photos
Maybe they missed some Instagram Stories ... and some articles on like every site, including ours ... and Ashley's own caption beside the photos. Ashley had to explain the pics again and again and again.

12. She dabbled in dating again, but ...

She dabbled in dating again, but ...
Ashley isn't seeing anyone seriously. She still has a broken heart.

13. She and Jay still communicate at times

She and Jay still communicate at times
She knew enough to know that Jay was able to handle his immigration issue outside of court, which is why his May 8 deportation hearing never happened. That's good, because it was the same day as her photoshoot.

14. Now comes Ashley's STARTLING revelation

Now comes Ashley's STARTLING revelation
This week in her Instagram Stories, Ashley calls divorcing Jay "the hardest thing I ever did in my life."

15. This is so heartbreaking

This is so heartbreaking
Ashley confirms: "I still love him."

16. But she's realistic about it

But she's realistic about it
"I just know it can't work," she admits. Probably because he apparently can't resist boning other women left and right the moment that Ashley turns her back.

17. The bridge has been burned

The bridge has been burned
"Too much damage has been done," Ashley's emotional confession concludes.

18. They still have the memories

They still have the memories
And, of course, tons and tons of photos and videos and their joint appearance on not one but two television shows: 90 Day Fiance and 90 Day Fiance: Happily Ever After?

19. Some of those memories are pretty NSFW

Some of those memories are pretty NSFW
Ashley has admitted that what first drew her to Jay was that he's just all kinds of hot. She noticed that he was tall and handsome in a club in Jamaica.

20. Ashley is no slouch herself

Ashley is no slouch herself
At 32, she's older than her 20-year-old ex, but she's gorgeous. Jay really screwed up ... again.

21. Ashley's confession makes a lot of sense

Ashley's confession makes a lot of sense
It explains why she was (mistakenly) blaming this alleged "homewrecker" and why she was furious enough with Jay that she was, at one point, cackling at the idea of him getting deported.

22. She's in mourning, folks

She's in mourning, folks
Ashley didn't end her marriage because she hates Jay. Her reason for breaking things off after he kept cheating on her is much sadder than that

23. It was self-care

It was self-care
Ashley loves herself enough to not continue to torture herself by being with a man who for some reason refuses to confine his banging to his marriage.

24. There's still a lot that we don't know

There's still a lot that we don't know
Ashley accuses Jay of cheating and even identified his alleged mistress, but that's not all ...

25. Ashley herself warned the world

Ashley herself warned the world
She predicts that "America will be SHOCKED" when they know the full scope of what Jay apparently did

26. Cheating isn't shocking

Cheating isn't shocking
Like half of all marriages involve cheating, which doesn't make it okay, but it's not exactly surprising. And it's less surprising from Jay, whom we've all known was a cheater for many months, now.

27. So what went down?

So what went down?
Did he NEVER stop cheating on her? Did he cheat while she was in the hospital? Did he cheat with a comically large number of mistresses? Was that story that he fathered a child out of wedlock, a story that Jay has adamanetly denied, true?

28. It's anyone's guess, but we need to be careful

It's anyone's guess, but we need to be careful
We hate to speculate too far -- doing so would mean accusing Jay of various terrible things that would qualify as "shocking."

29. Maybe we'll find out soon

Maybe we'll find out soon
90 Day Fiance: Happily Ever After? filmed its Season 4 Tell All special just a couple of weeks ago -- AFTER all of this divorce drama went down. Our hope is that Ashley and Jay spill the beans.

30. Whatever happened, Ashley will get through this

Whatever happened, Ashley will get through this
Her love for Jay will fade in time, and she has a bright future ahead of her.

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