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Colton Underwood has dropped yet another bombshell.

In a new cover story interview with Variety, the former Bachelor lead delved into his very personal history, opening up to the magazine about his ex-girlfriend, Cassie Randolph… his decision to come out as gay last month…

… and one disturbing story he never previously shared in public.

A Colton Underwood Selfie

“I’ll just say it,” Underwood says in the magazine’s wide-ranging feature – and say it he does, indeed. And then some.

“I, at one point, during my rock bottom and spiral, was getting blackmailed. Nobody knows I was blackmailed."

Pardon, Colton?!?

Please explain.

Colton Underwood on Instagram

According to the television personality, Underwood visited a spa last year known for catering to gay patrons.

I "should never have been there," he said, claiming he stopped by "just to look."

Whether that’s true or not is unimportant, because we all know what happened next …

Speaking His Truth
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Colton then received an email from someone who alleged to have photos of him naked inside the establishment.

The anonymous sender threatened to “out” the former Bachelor in the press.

That sick threat prompted Underwood to forward the email to his publicist, Alex Spieller.

Colton Underwood on His Insta
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They eventually agreed that Underwood needed to make the announcement himself at some point down the line; he had to control his own narrative and own up to his sexuality.

Fast forward to Underwood’s interview with Good Morning America in April.

“This year’s been a lot for a lot of people and it’s probably made a lot of people look at themselves in the year and figure out who they are,” Colton said at the time.

Cassie Randolph and Her Ex

“I’ve ran from myself for a long time, I’ve hated myself for a long time. I’m gay."

"I came to terms with that earlier this year, and the next step in all of this was sort of letting people know.”

Underwood deserves nothing but praise for taking this step. It was brave of him to do so.

Colton Underwood and Cassie Randolph Throwback
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But Colton was also accused last year of stalking Randolph after their split.

She told the authorities he even placed a tracking device on her car and ended up getting a restraining order against her ex.

In November, the pair settled their differences and signed an agreement, which means Underwood can’t speak in great detail about what happened.

Colton Underwood and Cassie Throwback

However, he acknowledges having acted in an inappropriate manner and spoke to Variety about a petition on

It has been signed by 35,000 people to date and its aim is to pressure Netflix to cancel an upcoming Underwood series due to these allegations.

"I did not physically touch or physically abuse Cassie in any way, shape or form,” Colton says now.

Colton Underwood and Cassie Randolph in Summer

He added:

“I never want people to think that I’m coming out to change the narrative, or to brush over and not take responsibility for my actions, and now that I have this gay life that I don’t have to address my past as a straight man."

"Controlling situations to try to grasp at any part of the straight fantasy that I was trying to live out was so wrong.”

Colton Underwood Video pic
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Cassie has said very little about Underwood’s sexual orientation reveal, and even less about what transpired between them last summer.

“It’s not who I am as a human being, and it’s not how I carry myself,” Underwood continued to Variety.

“If there was anything I could do to take more ownership, I would."

Cassie Randolph and Colton Randolph Throwback

"But also," he says of his ex, "out of respect to her, I don’t want to get into the details."

"I want this interview to be the last time I address her, because it’s not fair for her to have her name in articles every time I talk."

"I’m sorry, and I want her to know that I hope she has the best, most beautiful life.”

Colton Underwood and Cassie Randolph on Social Media

Elsewhere, as previously reported, Underwood attempted suicide last year.

He admits to Variety that he took an excessive amount of pills in the summer, recalling:

"I tried to end my life, and it didn’t work."

"That was the saddest and most confused and most hurt [feeling]."

Colton and Cassie Pic
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Colton – who has previously said that he questioned his sexuality way back in high school – also confesses here for the first time that he did fool around with men prior to striking it big on reality TV.

"I’ll say this. I was ‘the Virgin Bachelor,’ but I did experiment with men prior to being on The Bachelorette."

"When I say ‘hookups,’ not sex."

Colton and Cassie in Bed!
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"I want to make that very clear that I did not have sex with a man, prior to that," he adds.

Semantics aside, Underwood said he felt "so guilty" during his relations with men.

Nevertheless, he joined Grindr under an alias in 2016. 

He explains thusly:

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"It was my first time letting myself even go there," he said of trying out the dating app.

"So much so that I was like, ‘I need The Bachelorette in my life, so I could be straight.’"

Pretty incredible admissions all around – whatever you think of some of his decisions.

Colton Underwood and Cassie Throwback

How is he feeling and doing these days?

After coming clean in so many ways, like never before?

“I’m the happiest and healthiest I’ve ever been in my life," he tells Variety.

"That means the world to me.”

Cassie Randolph and Colton Underwood on ABC
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Wow, huh?

There’s a lot to unpack here.

Where do YOU stand on Colton’s story? Will you be watching his upcoming Netflix program?