Farrah Abraham, herself a star of Teen Mom on MTV, was struck by tragedy when daughter Sophia's dad, Derek Underwood, was killed in a car accident.
"It's getting easier," Abraham, now 19, tells Us Weekly of the crash that took his life in 2009. "It's hard to deal with the fact that Sophia never got to meet her dad ... but now that I've come out on the show about it, I'm really happy I did."
Despite a rocky relationship with Underwood (the couple hadn't spoken for four months before he died), Abraham says he would have been a great dad.
"He would have been loving and supportive and taken care of both of us. When Sophia was born, her face looked just like his, and so did her toes!"
"I made Sophia a baby book with notes he and I wrote to each other. It's a big collection of our relationship. I have pictures of us going to dances and lots of memories. I want her to know that he was a happy person who liked to have fun."
She's waiting for the right time to open up to Sophia. For now, she is leaning on her parents for help. She calls her relationship with her own mother, Debra Danielson, "a work in progress." The reasons why are surprising and sad.
Danielson was charged with domestic assault after tension over Abraham's seeming lack of attention toward her newborn escalated into an altercation. Danielson pleaded guilty to the lesser charge of interference with a police officer.
"We're a lot better. We try to go to counseling at least once a month. We've forgiven each other," says Abraham. "I see or speak to my parents [Danielson and dad Michael] daily now, and they're the best babysitters I could find!"