Thus far, through two episodes of Bachelor in Paradise Season 6, we think it's fair to say that Caelynn Miller-Keyes doesn't feel like she's in, well...
The former beauty queen and Bachelor contestant -- who competed on Colton Underwood's edition of this ABC franchise -- has been at the center of some crazy drama, thanks to her history with fellow star Blake Horstmann.
As a quick refresher:
We learned this past Monday night that Blake hooked up with both Caelynn AND Kristina Schulman at the Stagecoach Music Festival in April.
He allegedly told Caelynn that they ought to keep their dalliance a secret and he then felt as if his character was attacked for the way he supposedly treated these sexual conquests, which led to a rather shocking reveal on Tuesday night:
Blake released a numberof text messages he exchanged with Caelynn during their brief romance.
Why did Blake do this?
To combat the narrative that had suddenly grown around him on the show and on social, explaining on Instagram:
"I NEVER ghosted Caelynn, I NEVER called her a mistake and I absolutely NEVER EVER EVER silenced Caelynn."
As for Caelynn? How does she feel about private messages she sent being made public in this manner?
"Here we go," she wrote yesterday in response, starting a lengthy reply online that continued as follows:
"I am not here to deny those text messages or the conversations that took place. Things got taken out of context on the show, and a large part of the story is missing."
Caelynn went on to outline her relationship with Blake a little bit:
"The reality of the situation is that Blake was not a one night stand at a music festival and the 5 am text exchange that Blake chose to share is not an accurate representation of our past relationship.
"I take ownership for what I said on the beach. I was upset and I let my emotions control my words."
(Caelynn is referring here to how she she told Horstmann on Tuesday night's episode that he made her feel like “a slimy, disgusting secret.")
Continues Caelynn, in her harshest assessment yet of Blake:
However, I did not go on a show to ruin someone’s character. I attempted to address my feelings and the situation with Blake face to face.
It’s unfortunate that I didn't get the same respect in return, and I am absolutely mortified our private texts were put out there for the world to see and judge by someone who I trusted and consider a friend nonetheless.
Sounds pretty fair, right?
"It’s clear to me that Blake and I had different ideas of what our “relationship” was," she added.
"We started talking months before Stagecoach. We FaceTimed everyday and talked about potentially skipping paradise to be together.
"When I say he ghosted me, it was after those few months of us talking. It was my understanding there was no one else and I thought we were on the same page."
From here, Caelynn abandoned her critique of Blake for a moment and honed in on her critics.
Sadly, as you probably could have guessed, Miller-Keyes has somehow garnered some backlash from idiots online because she dared to sleep with someone as a single person.
"What infuriates me the most is that I’m being trolled for having sex because of what I’ve been through," she wrote, referring to having been raped in college and adding:
"I want to be very clear that I am not looking for sympathy. I took the necessary steps to move on and heal, but I will not be abstinent for the rest of my life because of it."
And this is how Caelynn concluded her take:
This is a complicated situation considering it’s not only on TV, but has taken a life of its own on the internet. This could’ve been over after last night’s episode, but since it’s now all over Instagram,
I felt like it was imperative to share my truth. We all have our own perception of how different situations unfold and there are many sides to this story.
I hope that we can all move forward and support one another, rather than tear each other down.
I have moved on and I am excited to continue to share the rest of my journey with you all.
What a mess, huh?