Lindsay Lohan’s hopes of reinventing herself as an actress on the mend and a sober, calm and pulled together person are largely tied to the new series Lindsay.
At least after one episode, the jury is still out.
The 27-year-old was filmed for a new eight-part Lindsay reality series last year for Oprah Winfrey’s OWN network, chronicling her life and experiences post-rehab.
On many cases, that life still looks turbulent.
She states her desire to live with integrity and be in control, yet seems awfully unsure of how to achieve that, despite moving back to her native New York.
"Coming back to New York I needed a change, a fresh start, a clean slate and I needed to be close to my family," she revealed during the hour long show.
"Life can be chaotic and it’s keeping myself calm in the middle of that which I didn’t do before and I’m learning to do," LiLo added … but is she learning?
"It’s really stressful finding a place in New York," the actress, who recently spoke of a Mean Girls reunion for the show’s 10-year anniversary, lamented.
"The boards who have to approve you, they’re like, ‘Oh it’s Lindsay Lohan. Oh will she be having late, loud nights? We don’t want her in our building.’"
"Or ‘Oh great, we’ll have her in the building. Let’s up the price!’"
As she was filmed storming off the set of a photo shoot after growing flustered, the fragile star revealed that it was a case of too much too soon.
Constantly flanked by her sober coach and a personal assistant, Lindsay was seen veering from being tearfully happy to agitated and angrily chastising others.
"Do you ever feel like you’re a prisoner?" Emmy-nominated filmmaker Amy Rice asked, regarding the paparazzi attention. "Yes, all the time," she replied.
Fortunately, there is always family … well, maybe fortunately.
"It’s comforting to be around my family and they are a huge part of my recovery," she concluded, with no mention of previous dramas with her parents.
"There’s so much love in all my family members… It really will be nice when there’s no more talking and only positive things will be said and that day will come…"
How soon, if at all, remains an open question.
Lindsay Lohan: Can she stay clean?