Farrah Abraham as just voted the Internet's Favorite Sex Tape Star.
But even that honor is not enough to make the former Teen Mom feel better about Farrah Superstar: Backdoor Teen Mom. She tells In Touch Weekly that she wishes she had never filmed her amateur porn.
“It made it hard to have friends and a private life and to trust family, who I feel use me for money,” Abraham tells the tabloid. “If I went back in time, I would not have done it. The sex tape ruined my life.”
Farrah acknowledges that friends and family members warned her against it. They said it would send a bad message to her young daughter, Sophia.
And it didn't take long for Abraham to agree. She says she "wanted to hide my face and not go out or pick up my phone" not long after Vivid Entertainment released the video.
Moreover, Farrah says the sex tape has negatively affected her dating life.
She dated a DJ named Bria Dawe last spring, but the relationship didn't last long.
“He abandoned me,” Farrah tells In Touch, adding that the two were going to appear together on VH1's Couple Therapy until Brian bailed.
But Abraham is glad she went on the series by herself.
"Therapy helped me understand I can’t continue experiencing life [the way I had been], that I’m more special than sex tapes,” she says. “Hearing others tell me my worth is [all based on] my body. ... I’m stronger than that.”