After months of silence over her husband Josh Duggar's Ashley Madison cheating scandal, Anna Duggar is finally speaking out about how she is coping with the betrayal.
With a shaky voice and tear-filled eyes, Anna talks about her struggle with the shocking news.
"It just seemed like a bad dream, it didn't seem possible and I just thought, I'm gonna wake up and everything is going to be okay and this really can't be true," she confessed during an episode of Jill & Jessa: Counting On.
"It was definitely a hard thing and I think it is such a betrayal for a spouse to go through."
To say Josh has put Anna through H-E-double-hockey-sticks is an understatement.
In the last year alone, not only was he identified as a user of the Ashley Madison online affair site, it was revealed that he molested multiple children - including his younger sisters - and was accused of abusing a porn star who he paid to have sex with.
Oh, and by the by, all this just happened to go down while Anna was pregnant with their fourth child.
So, in other words, Josh is an unmitigated douchebag and an full-blown perv.
Josh recently returned home from a months-long stint in rehab, where he was being treated for a sex and porn addiction, if that's actually a thing.
But despite all the lies and depravity, Anna remains true to her Christian faith, and thus committed to her husband.
"I respect other people's views, but in my heart, when I got married, I vowed to God first and then to Joshua, for better or for worse, till death do we part," she says.
"My prayer and my heart's desire is for our marriage is to be restored," she adds.
Toward the end, if you look deep into Anna's bloodshot, terror-stricken eyes, you can detect some semblance of a soul left inside her screaming, PLEASE. HELP. ME.