Adele is one of those celebrities who generally keeps her personal life very private.
She's got one of the best voices on the planet and is one of the most relatable celebrities out there.
The 28-year-old is currently touring North America as part of her world tour in support of her album, "25."
The star opened up in the December issue of Vanity Fair about her personal life and what it's like to live in the spotlight.
One of the things that came up was Adele chatting about her having postpartum depression.
“I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me,” she tells the magazine.
“One day I said to a friend, ‘I f**kin’ hate this,’ and she just burst into tears and said, ‘I f**kin’ hate this, too.’ And it was done. It lifted,” she explains.
“My knowledge of postpartum—or post-natal, as we call it in England—is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job," Adele says.
"But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life. It can come in many different forms. Eventually I just said, I’m going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f**k I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don’t you feel bad?’ I said, I do, but not as bad as I’d feel if I didn’t do it.”
Adele also chatted about what made her cut back on drinking alcohol.
“Having a hangover with a child is torture,” she says, referring to herself as once a “massive drinker.”
“Just imagine an annoying three-year-old who knows something’s wrong; it’s hell,” the global superstar adds.
“I used to love to be drunk, but as I got more famous I would wake up the next morning and think, What the f**k did I say and who the f**k did I say it to?" Adele recalls.
"I can see from an outsider’s perspective that I will never write songs as good as the ones that are on 21, but I’m not as indulgent as I was then, and I don’t have time to fall apart like I did then. I was completely off my face writing that album, and a drunk tongue is an honest one."
"I would drink two bottles of wine, and I would chain-smoke. Then I’d write the lyrics down and the next morning think, F**k, that’s quite good. Then I’d find the melody. But since I’ve had my baby, I’m not as carefree as I used to be.”
However, with things changing over the past few years, Adele may not be rushing to expand on her family.
“I think it’s the bravest thing not to have a child; all my friends and I felt pressurized into having kids, because that’s what adults do,” she says.
“I love my son more than anything," Adele insists,"but on a daily basis, if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the f**k I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that.”
“I’ve always been pretty melancholy,” she explains.
“Obviously not as much in my real life as the songs are, but I have a very dark side. I’m very available to depression. I can slip in and out of it quite easily," she shares.
"It started when my granddad died when I was about 10, and while I never had a suicidal thought, I have been in therapy, lots. But, I haven’t had that feeling since I had my son and snapped out of my postpartum depression.”
Postpartum must be a scary thing for any mother to go through.
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