Monica Lewinsky: I Deeply Regret Bill Clinton Affair

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Monica Lewinsky.

There. Do have your attention now?

The 40-year old former mistress of President Bill Clinton is featured in the new issue of Vanity Fair, addressing the 1998 dalliance that led to an impeachment and one of the biggest scandals to ever hit the White House.

Monica Lewinsky Vanity Fair Photo

"It's time to burn the beret and bury the blue dress," Lewinsky writes in the magazine, emphasizing a theme of looking forward.

Lewinsky goes on to say it’s time to stop "tiptoeing around my past – and other people's futures."

She wants to shed her identity as the White House intern who had a sexual relationship with a sitting President and take control of her own "narrative" for a change.

"I am determined to have a different ending to my story," she says. "I've decided, finally, to stick my head above the parapet... and  give a purpose to my past. (What this will cost me, I will soon find out.)"

Lewinsky doesn’t push blame on Clinton, either.

"Sure, my boss took advantage of me," she writes. "But I will always remain firm on this point: It was a consensual relationship. Any 'abuse' came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position...

"The Clinton administration, the special prosecutor's minions, the political operatives on both sides of the aisle, and the media were able to brand me. And that brand stuck, in part because it was imbued with power."

As recently as last August, a Monica Lewinsky sex tape (really, just a recording of her planning a meeting with the POTUS) went viral.

"I, myself, deeply regret what happened between me and President Clinton," Lewisky adds. "Let me say it again: I. Myself. Deeply. Regret. What. Happened."

The ex-intern also says she was inspired to tell her tale by Tyler Clementi, the 18-year-old Rutgers student who committed suicide in 2010 after being bullied because he was gay.

Because she, too, was suicidal around the time the scandal broke in 1998, this is how Lewinsky hopes to use her fame going forward.

"[My goal] is to get involved with efforts on behalf of victims of online humiliation and harassment and to start speaking on this topic in public forums," she writes.

Vanity Fair's digital edition will be available May 8 and the magazine will be on newsstands May 13.

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