Lady Gaga Covers Vanity Fair, Reflects on Relationships Past

The incomparable Lady Gaga opens up to Vanity Fair about some of the relationships that have gone wrong for her in the past, as well as what it's like to give her all on stage.

"When I'm performing, I'm so giving, so open and myself," says the hardest working woman in showbiz. "When the spotlight's off, I don't know quite what to do with myself."

The singer, who's dating Taylor Kinney now, doesn't always look back positively on some of her previous flings. She tells VF in its January 2012 cover story:

"I have this effect on people where it starts out good," Gaga admits, ominously.

"Then, when I'm in these relationships with people who are also creative, or creative in their own way, what happens is the attraction is initially there and it's all just unicorns and rainbows. And then they hate me."

"I have never felt truly cherished by a lover," the 25-year-old admits. "I have an inability to know what happiness feels like with a man."

"I say this honestly, and this is my new thing as of the past year: when I fight with someone I'm in a relationship with, I think, What would my fans think if they knew this was happening? How would they feel about my work and about me as a female if they knew I was allowing this to go on? And then I get out."

"I only know the happiness of putting a smile on someone's face from the stage."

Strangely, Gaga says that after some contentious breakups, exes asked her to marry them. "How f*%kin' romantic, you a$$hole," she reflects, sarcastically.

"Sure, pop a ring on my finger and make it better. I can buy myself a f*%kin' ring."

Of her latest video, for "Marry the Night," she says it's "autobiographical," and required the grueling task of "getting ready to relive the worst day of my life."

Some nice food for thought! Follow this link for VF's interview with Gaga ...