There’s a lot for Portia de Rossi to be happy about. Just this past December, Portia celebrated 10 years with Ellen DeGeneres.
But life hasn’t always been so grand for the Scandal star.
In the second season of the web series It Gets Better, de Rossi opens up about her battle with bulimia.
It Gets Better is a series developed for teenagers struggling with their sexual identity. It often features stars candidly discussing their past demons.
Portia discussed her eating disorder and how it was tied the complicated emotions she felt about her sexuality.
“I felt tremendous responsibility when I was 12 years old, and I was put up on a catwalk,” de Rossi reveals.
She continues, “My modeling agents had told me to go on a diet. So I didn’t eat for 10 days before the.”
It wasn’t just the agents prodding at her self-esteem either. Portia adds that even fellow models taunted her about her bushy eyebrows.
The actress goes into detail about the difficult battle between her body and her damaging internal dialogue:
“When I got in the car after that event and just opened up a bag of my favorite candy and just put my whole head in it and I think, ‘S**t, what have I done? I’ve just undid two weeks worth of dieting.’ So then I vomit.”
Because of her eating disorder, de Rossi’s weight dropped to a dangerous 82 pounds.
She states, “I didn’t want to think about being gay,” and the struggle with her sexual identity was a contributing factor toward her eating disorder.
But as the title of the web series suggests, it does get better.
Portia is in a better place, and she hopes her story can help young people who are confronting similar issues.
“No matter what it is, you just have to go with whatever makes you smile.”
It really does get better.