Hannah Brown is the first to admit that her life has been turned upside down. Her role as Bachelorette was not the journey she expected.
Instead, she’s living alone for the first time, and she’s being very honest with fans.
Hannah is struggling with where her life has brought her.
Hannah Brown posted a lengthy confessional essay on her Instagram.
"Honest policy: I’m struggling," the beloved Bachelorette begins.
She acknowledges that "Life is so different."
"Since last August, I’ve been a pageant queen, a bachelor contestant, and the Bachelorette," Hannah notes.
"I’ve been in love with multiple people, I got engaged, I broke off an engagement," she recalls. "And I shared it all with millions of people."
"My faith has been questioned by thousands who don’t know my heart," Hannah laments.
"And," she continues. "My transparency with my decisions has labeled me promiscuous."
None of her actions have deserved that label — though there is of course nothing wrong with promiscuity.
"Simultaneously," Hannah writes. "I’ve become a role model for young women and started bigger conversations around faith, and sex."
"I’m living on my own for the first time," she adds. "And shuffling through this life of next steps with press, media, and opportunities galore."
"I miss my friends and family that have watched my life explode," Hannah expresses.
Living on your own for the first time is a big deal. That’s also a stark reminder of how young Hannah is.
"I feel guilty," she admits. "Because I don’t have the time or emotional capacity to fill each of them in on my life right now."
Hey, no judgment here.
"I can’t keep up with the people that matter most," Hannah laments. "Because I can barely keep up with my own life right now."
"I am not complaining about this past year of adventures," Hannh clarifies.
In fact, she notes that there have been some very positive changes.
"The woman who has emerged would shock the mirror-image young girl from a year ago," she says.
Hannah acknowledges: "I have so many blessings to be thankful for."
"However," she adds. "It’s uncharted territory for me, and it’s been hard to really process what the heck is going on."
"Maybe I needed write this out to remind myself I’m human," Hannah suggests. "And it’s okay to be overwhelmed."
She adds: "And maybe, I just needed to remind you guys too."
"Life is beautiful, but wild," Hannah emphasizes. "I think it’s okay to be strong-to know you’re strong-but to still feel weak simultaneously."
"I believe that’s when the magic happens," she writes. "My spirit has opportunity to grow and blossom from this place."
"Healing and restoration can happen," Hannah affirms.
This is where Hannah begins to discuss her journey through the lens of her faith. She is a Christian.
"I can rest knowing that My Savior has compassion and wants to help and love me through this journey," Hannah writes. "I’ve just got to let Him."
"I don’t know if I have been lately," she admits. "But I am now because honestly, I think I would give out if I didn’t."
"So yeah," Hannah continues. "I’m not going to struggle to disguise my weakness."
"I’m just gonna give over the keys to my main man Jesus," Hannah concludes. "And let him bless me through this ride."
In times of doubt and troubles, leaning on your faith can be a powerful way to cope. Good for you, Hannah.