Jenni Farley Talks Miscarriage: I Was a F--king Mess!

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Gym, Tan, Laundry?

Maybe that was all the cast of Jersey Shore talked about its first time around.

But a lot has changed over the years, and these MTV stars got far deeper than we ever imagined was possible on Thursday night's installment of their rebooted series.

J. Farley

Specifically, Jenni “JWoww” Farley and Mike “The Situation” Sorrentino opened up on this episode about Jersey Shore Season 4, which was filmed in Italy.

It aired throughout the summer and fall of 2011 -- and Farley admits now that she was in no shape at all to be having her life filmed at all times by cable network cameras back then.

And why not?

Because she had very recently suffered a miscarriage.

"Three to four weeks before Italy, my grandmother passed and me and Roger [Mathews] actually lost a baby … not a lot of people know,” the 32-year old said on air last night.

She went on to detail the effect that such a trauma had on her psyche.

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 “They put me on medication because of it because I couldn’t handle life," Jenni said, expounding as follows:

"The medication – it was like Xanax, it would take me down. The downers would make me so groggy, then I would start taking uppers. I segued right into Italy.

"I was a f-cking mess."

Man. We're so very sorry to hear that.

Few life events are as devastating as a miscarriage.

Farley and husband Mathews eventually welcomed their first child, a daughter named Meilani Alexandra, in 2014.

Two years later, they welcomed a son named Greyson Valor.

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Prior to Meilani entering the world, however, Farley wrote candidly on her blog that she actually thought she had suffered a miscarriage for a second time.

(The first miscarriage was unknown to the public at the time.)

"I went to the bathroom, I saw blood and panicked," wrote Farley in early 2014, adding:

"So many thoughts were running through my head. I felt a loss like no other when I thought that I was no longer pregnant.

"I whispered it to Roger and for that whole ride we just stared straight ahead and didn’t say a word. I went to bed that night in Nashville praying it was just a thing that happens."

Thankfully, she was right.

Everything was okay this time around.

Roger Mathews and JWOWW Photo

Jersey Shore: Family Vacation premiered last Thursday evening, giving fans an update on what Jenni, Mike and others in their crew have been up to.

In many ways, things are the same:

There's still plenty of drinking, partying and arguing taking place.

In other ways, however, nothing is the same, most notably because there are now actual kids in the picture... kids that belong to these reality stars!

Who would have thought?!?

To watch Jersey Shore online and to get caught up on the happenings surrounding JWOWW and company, press Play on the video below:

Editor's Note:

We wish Farley the best and we're so very sorry this happened to her.

We're glad to hear that she has recovered from this tragedy and we think her two kids are SO cute!

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