Life of Kylie Premiere Recap: Inner Struggles, Deep Thoughts and Bathroom Selfies

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Kylie Jenner's new reality show Life of Kylie debuted Sunday, with the Keeping Up with the Kardashians star striking out on her own.

We've got all the highlights from it right here in case you missed the landmark TV event that was Life of Kylie Season 1 Episode 1 ...

Those tuning in to watch Life of Kylie online can expect a lot of introspection and Jenner waxing philosophical about life in the limelight.

Jenner's social media fame and celebrity are unmatched, but whether this formula for a show can sustain fan interest is another story.

In essence, Life of Kylie explores the behind-the-scenes ... well, life of Kylie Jenner that you don't see online, such as our girl's friendships.

Chief among those friendships is with Jordyn Woods.

The premiere showed us exactly how Kylie and Jordyn made California high school student Albert Ochoa’s celebrity dream date come true.

Ochoa's prom featured quite the pair of celebrity guests, which is a really cool thing about fame. But being famous has a downside, too.

Kylie scoffs at those who say she leads a charmed life.

Kylie Jenner Glows in Sunlight

“[I] laugh. In their face. Nobody has a perfect life," she said. "The only different thing about me is probably just that I have nice things."

"But what you realize when you get there - when I know I could buy any car, any house - is that that happiness lasts two seconds.”

“That’s not real happiness [or] where I find happiness."

"I’m so blessed that I got to experience this at such a young age and learn that, so now I can find what really is going to make me happy.”

Of the fact that she has a public persona on display at all times, she says, “There’s an image that I feel constantly pressured to keep up with."

"In order to stay relevant for the public, I have to be on Instagram and I have to be on Snapchat just keeping people entertained."

"And then there’s who I really am around my friends."

Kylie Jenner Sneak Peek Silhouette

"That’s who I want you guys to get to know. It’s way easier for me to post on Snapchat or Instagram than it is to be out in public."

So she's ... kind of an introvert then!?

"I just feel like for so long I’ve been putting on this different persona to the world ... I felt like I started to depend on social media."

"Feeling the need to post all the time. I feel like I have to keep up this idea of who I am. I think I lost a lot of parts of myself."

"My funny side ... when I was 14 I used to post all these funny videos all the time, just me being like, super weird and funny and myself."

"I feel like once I started getting a little bit bigger, then people really started to … everyone says mean things sometimes, it’s just how social media is."

"It's a really mean, negative space. Every single day I see something negative about me. When that started happening, that really affected me."

Kylie Jenner, All Sweet and Innocent

"So I was like: ‘I’m not going to show people that side of me anymore.’ I’m kind of putting up a version of myself to the world that isn’t fully me.”

In that sense, Kylie Jenner - the most popular young woman on the ENTIRE Internet, you could argue - feels like something of an outcast.

“I have a soft spot for the outcasts because I guess I was the outcast in a lot of ways, growing up. I still feel like an outcast," she says.

"I can’t relate to a lot of people. I had to get home-schooled, not because I wanted to but because I missed so much when I was working."

"It’s hard to feel normal. I started filming when I was 9 years old. I really don’t know what it’s like to not have everyone know who I am."

"I don’t know what it’s like to live a normal life, where people  don’t know who you are, to get out of the car and not have everyone stare."

Kylie Jenner for GQ Mexico

"I feel like when you grow up on camera, people think that they know you because you’re on social media so much and you’re on reality TV.”

“I for sure didn’t choose this life, but I’m not going to say that I’m totally innocent, because I am keeping up this lifestyle."

"I know I’m making myself more famous by having an Instagram and posting photos, but I’m not that type of person where I want all the attention."

"I don’t like that. It actually freaks me out, because it reminds me that I’m ‘Kylie f--king Jenner.’ A lot of people have it worse than me."

"It’s just a lot to handle. Sometimes, I’m like: ‘This is it. I’m insane.’ I feel like this fame thing is going to come to an end sooner than we think."

"I’m getting the bug again, where I just want to run away. I just don’t know who I’m doing it for. The new goal in my life is to just live."

Kylie Jenner Braless Selfie

In conclusion, the increasingly relatable 19-year-old says:

"I live the most extraordinary life, and I’m very grateful. But the moments I feel completely normal and just a 19-year-old girl, it’s the best.”

Of course, that doesn't mean she's going reclusive yet.

Kylie is as known for her selfies as anything, and for good reason, though she adds that it's harder than you might think to perfect the art.

“Posting a selfie is really hard because it’s a lot of pressure. It has to be perfect. I check the comments right when I post."

"If they’re like: ‘What the f--k is this Kylie?’ then I delete that s--t super fast and reevaluate my decision!” Kylie reveals.

It's a hard life, but someone's gotta head it ....

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Kylie Jenner Biography

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Kylie Jenner