Maci Bookout: Ryan Edwards is Going to Die From Drug Use and No One Cares But Me!

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On last night's episode of Teen Mom: OG, the "important people" on the show (read: everyone except Farrah Abraham) traveled to Puerto Rico.

There, they bonded over fun in the sun ... and over the difficulties of MTV stardom and the struggles they've experienced of late.

Maci Bookout Cries

It started off as a laid back atmosphere, but one of the moms clearly had difficulty leaving her problems on the mainland - and with good reason.

Ryan Edwards' drug use has been a cause of deep concern for Maci Bookout in recent weeks, and she gave voice to this again Monday.

Her fears and frustrations were aired in alarming detail during a candid chat she had with co-stars Catelynn Lowell and Amber Portwood.

Maci revealed that, far from being played up for the cameras, her baby daddy's situation is actually more serious than it appears on screen.

How bad are we talking about?!

Maci Bookout on Teen Mom OG

Bookout says she fears that those closest to Edwards are enabling his self-destructive behavior, a mistake that could have fatal consequences.

“What I’m saying is that everyone else around him is too afraid of what it will look like more than his health,” she tells her co-stars.

Portwood and Lowell have both experienced addiction issues firsthand, and they confirmed Maci's fears that her ex's situation is a dire one.

"You are so in love with the drugs that you feel that if you wake up in the morning without them you want to die," Portwood said.

Given her own battles with substance abuse - so bad that she spent a year and a half in prison to get sober - she knows from experience.

Amber went on to add:

"So, should I die?"

Ryan Edwards Pic

"It’s a feeling that you can never f--king feel unless you’ve really been to the bottom. He needs to find where his bottom may be.”

Edwards recently got engaged to Mackenzie Standifer, and he maintains a close relationship with his parents, Jen and Larry.

Maci says his mom and dad aren't doing enough, though, and that she alone in recognizing the severity of his situation.

A tearful Bookout added:

“I’m just sick of cleaning up his mess. I get tired of dealing with the s--t. Just being the only one that f--kng sees everything and cares."

She went on to reveal that she frequently fears for Edwards' life while discussing his situation with current husband Taylor McKinney.

Maci Bookout, Ryan Edwards and Bentley

“I talk to Taylor about it like, ‘I wonder if today’s going to be the day that Ryan does something that he can’t come back from?’" Bookout says.

She later told the camera that while her fears for Ryan's life persist, it was very helpful to share her concerns with Amber and Catelynn:

“That’s exactly what I needed was two people that have been there on both sides of it that have my back no matter what,” said Bookout.

“They were genuinely just there for me.”

Certainly, friends like theset wo can relate with their own hardships, as well, so Bookout knows she's not merely receiving lip service.

As always, you can watch Teen Mom OG online for more of Maci's ups and downs through the years ... mostly having to do with Ryan.

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Maci Bookout is a star of Teen Mom on MTV. She is the mother of Bentley Cadence Edwards. MTV describes her as the classic teenage... More »
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