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A few days after the tragic suicide of former American Idol contestant Paula Goodspeed, new details have emerged about the troubled Paula Abdul fan.

According to People Magazine, the following incidents and facts sum up Goodspeed’s obsession with the show’s judge:

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  • Last week, Abdul received flowers with a note signed: “Love, J.T.” and the message, “Hope you’re doing great. Here’s my new cell number.” The singer assumed they were from ex-boyfriend J.T. Torregiani,, but he denied knowledge of the gift.

“The flower thing was really scary – Paula [Abdul] really couldn’t handle that. She was terrified,” a source said of Abdul’s reaction when she realized the bouquet came from Goodspeed.

  • Abdul had received over 100 letters, numerous phone calls and many visits from Goodspeed over the last three years.
  • Goodspeed changed her first name from Sandra to Paula.

Said Ed Faris, a producer/songwriter in Los Angeles, who worked with Goodspeed on her aspiring singing career around 2005:

“I was shocked to hear about her death, I never thought it would come to that,” says Faris. “It’s just a sad situation all around.”