James Lowe, the 24-year-old photographer long rumored to be dating "Royals" singer Lorde, is opening up for the first time about her and their relationship.
In a new post on his blog, Ono Field, he shares what it's like to be dating the 17-year-old who became one of the most famous pop stars in the world.
Writes James Lowe:
"I've written, deleted, re-written, and deleted this post at least five times in the past few months, wondering when would be an appropriate time to start writing again."
He notes that "Since originally sitting down to write this post, Ella has become a two-time Grammy winner." (Lorde's real name is Ella Yelich-O'Connor.)
"She has taken home a Brit too. Currently she is on the opposite side of the world on tour. As much as I miss her, I couldn't be prouder of what she has achieved so far."
He goes on to talk about how he's changed since they started dating.
"My life is probably a lot different now, but it feels normal on the inside," he says. "Jared Leto said that fame doesn't change you, it changes everyone around you."
"While I'm not the centre of attention (and f--k, the times I have, it's never been fun), I do become aware of the people around me and their transparency."
At times, he notes, he's been a target of the Internet's cruelty.
In December, Lorde and her boyfriend faced bullying from Twitter users who slammed the photographer as ugly and made racist comments about him.
That said, the negative aspects are "only a small part" of Lowe's world now. "There's a bright, shining silver lining to this thing I've been exposed to," he writes.
"I've been able to tell tales of the many amazing people I've met along the way ... [people] never thought I'd get to meet, let alone have a simple thing like coffee with."
"More importantly, I've found a little inspiration from new faces."
"People I look up to. People whose work I admire so much. For all of this I have to thank the one I look up to the most. Who I admire the most."
"Who still fills the little voids I try to avoid."