That's what Candice Glover uttered last night upon being crowned American Idol winner, citing the number of seasons on which she's appeared.
"I'm still trying to process it,"' she told reporters soon after the finale ended. "I don't even know my name! Oh my gosh! I don't know what's happening! It feels amazing though to finally have gotten to this point after working so hard for so long.
Among other topics touched on by the Season 12 champion:
What she's learned on the show: How to be confident and how to be myself and to be okay with who I am. In previous seasons, I was doing what I thought America wanted, or what the judges or whoever wanted. But this year, I just did whatever I wanted to do. Hence, I would do a rapper's song on the show or I would do The Cure when no one expected me to.
Her relationship with Kree Harrison: We tell each other we love each other probably 90,000 times a day, but it really meant a lot for her to hug me and say, "I love you and I'm so happy for you!" And I said the same to her. I'm so proud of her.
The reaction from Nicki Minaj: Nicki came up to me and said I was a superstar! She wanted to hug me! She was joking when she was saying, "Can I hug the American Idol?" Every time I say that, I just can't believe it! She always tells me to have fun and be myself. I love Nicki and would love to collaborate with her.
Will she Direct Message Drake? Isn't it even crazy that I can do that though? That he even follows me on Twitter? I don't know... he knows that I want to talk to him, because people have been tweeting him. And he did say that he was proud of me!
Did Candice Glover deserve to win American Idol?