With the exception of a single tweet on January 31, Heidi Klum has had nothing to say about her shocking divorce from Seal, her husband since 2005.
"I feel like I'm in the eye of the tornado," she tells Elle. "It's emotions inside your body that are a tornado. And then the outside world doing all this craziness - with you wanting it or not wanting it - is another tornado."
"But as hard as it is, so is life," adds the 38-year-old mother of four.
"Sometimes I think a curveball just comes at you. Instead of something straight that you catch, it hits you in the head from the side that you didn't expect."
Klum acknowledges there had been problems in the marriage.
"To the outside world, you don't really share all the things that happen. You kind of share just the most amazing sides," Klum notes. "But I don't really want to get into any of that stuff. With my life, my family, my business - I want to go forward."
"I feel like already there are so many things being said about us - about him, about me. I'm not going to comment. Otherwise it makes you angry."
"You can't always call and say, 'This is not true, but this part is true.'"Seal has spoken endlessly about their separation while promoting his eighth studio album in January, a fact that Heidi doesn't seem too thrilled about.
"He's a grown man. I can't tell him what and what not to do. It's hard."
"People don't need to know who did what," she adds. "I don't want to talk positively or negatively about the ups and downs that we had. Every couple goes through things. Unfortunately, we're in the public, so the highs are out there."
"I'm a lioness. I have four cubs. I'm a mom. I want to take care of my kids and protect them," she says. "I don't want to talk about them, or him, or me."
The ex-Victoria's Secret angel adds that she's a "strong person," but she's "also a soft person." "I'm not a robot," she says. "I'm not made out of stone."