It seems like every day is an uphill battle for Scott Disick.
The Long Island native filmed with Caitlyn Jenner back in December for her reality show, I am Cait, and last night the scenes finally aired.
As of press time, Disick and Kourtney Kardashian are not back together, despite several reports highlighting their on/off relationship.
"How are you doing with the whole holiday season?" Jenner asked Scott while they were picking out a Christmas tree.
"It's a little tough I mean obviously without having my parents and anybody on my side of the family and not really knowing if I'm going to spend it with Kourtney and the kids," Disick explained.
"But it's a little hard for me because I don't want people to like take pity on me either and they're just inviting me because they know that all my family's dead.
"You know, I just want people to invite me because they want to, not because they feel bad for me."
"So it's hard in that way and I'm obviously not drinking or doing drugs so I'm just alone with my thoughts every night and it's tough. It's a very tough feeling feeling isolated.
"Sometimes I just wanna like…" Disick trailed off before Jenner asked if he ever sees a reconciliation with Kardashian.
"I mean you know I think that would be like the dream," Scott admitted
"End of the day I would love to see us work everything out and be in love again and watch movies together and be intimate and love each other and be best friends. But I also don't wanna just rush into something that doesn't make sense."