Life in the Mansion destroyed self-esteem
"The Mansion wasn't a place where confidence was built," Madison told People. "It was a place where manipulation was used to keep everyone scrambling to keep her spot in the house."
Sex with Hef was most unpleasant
"Everyone wanted to get that kind of thing over very quickly," Madison said of sex with the octogenarian in her first book, Down the Rabbit Hole. No shocker there.
Hef's bedroom antics were "scary" and "bizarre"
Madison said she was offered quaaludes, which Hef crudely referred to as "thigh openers." She claimed the orgies entailed two widescreens of porn, watching Hef masturbate, a passed joint and multiple women hanging out in a semicircle around the bed.
The Mansion was like a prison
"Everyone thinks that the infamous metal gate was meant to keep people out," Madison said in her first book. "But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in." She admits she contemplated suicide, believing it was her only way out.
Hef sent her creepy letters after she left
Madison was in the press numerous times after she left the mansion, but Hef still wanted to control her. "If I said anything that was slightly not to his liking, he’d send me a reprimanding type of letter," said Madison. "There was just a very creepy vibe to them."