How Did This All Start?
In the 2006 film She's the Man, Bynes dressed in drag. "When the movie came out and I saw it, I went into a deep depression for 4-6 months because I didn't like how I looked when I was a boy. I've never told anyone that," she tells Paper, explaining that seeing herself with short hair and sideburns was "a super strange and out-of-body experience. It just really put me into a funk."
Fast Forward a Year...
... and Bynes was cast in Hairspray in 2007. She read somewhere that Adderall was the "new skinny pill." So Bynes says she visited a psychiatrist and faked the symptoms of ADD in order to get a prescription
The Pill Popping Continued
We're now in 2010 and Bynes is doing the movie Hall Pass and: "I remember being in the trailer and I used to chew the Adderall tablets because I thought they made me [higher that way]. I remember chewing on a bunch of them and literally being scatterbrained and not being able to focus on my lines. Or memorize them, for that matter."
Things Got Much Worse from There
While "literally tripping out," Bynes says she caught a glimpse of herself on the monitor and thought her arm "looked so fat." Displeased with her appearance, Bynes rushed off set... never to return.
It Was Then on to Easy A
After seeing Easy-A, the comedy Bynes starred in opposite Emma Stone in 2010, the actress was appalled by herself — so much so, she was convinced she “needed to stop acting” right away: “I was high on marijuana when I saw that but for some reason it really started to affect me. I don’t know if it was a drug-induced psychosis or what, but it affected my brain in a different way than it affects other people. It absolutely changed my perception of things.”
Bynes said she then retired, started staying home all the time and ended up in a “really dark, sad world."