Jamie Otis is a woman on a mission.
But that mission has taken another tragic turn for the terribly unfortunate.
The former Married at First Sight cast member, who is the mother to a beautiful daughter named Gracie and who suffered a miscarriage in 2016, confirmed on Sunday that she experienced a chemical pregnancy just days after she posted a picture of a pregnancy test that she hoped was positive.
This is such heartbreaking news.
“Sorry I’ve been MIA, this very bizarre positive pregnancy test then negative test then faint positive lines gave me hope that Gracie was going to become a big sis in 9 months," wrote the ex-TLC star, adding as part of a caption to the photo above:
"But the night before last I began having terrible contraction-like pains & spotting."
Otis is a nurse. She had a strong feeling about what this meant.
"Then over the night full blown everything – if you know what I mean," she continued.
"I’m a nurse so I had my suspicions; but my midwife confirmed I had a chemical pregnancy.
"I don’t know why some people have it seemingly SO easy to get preggers & carry their babies to term and others struggle?"
There's no answer to this question, of course.
It's just a very unfair aspect of life.
(For those wondering, a chemical pregnancy is defined as an early pregnancy loss that occurs shortly after implantation of a fertilized egg. The exact cause is unknown.)
Referring to her daughter and to husband Doug Hehner, Otis put on an impresively brave face and continued:
“What I do know is that I am so, so thankful for this little girl [and her daddy] right here. It’s like she knew mommy was in so much pain bc she just wanted to be held and snuggled all night long."
Otis had shared a photo of what looked like a positive pregnancy test on Instagram on Friday, August 31.
“If I stare long enough I see the faintest ‘+’ sign,” she wrote, asking followers to send “baby dust, prayers & positivity” her way.
Jamie and Doug met on the first season of Married at First Sight.
And the former emphasized in this same Instagram post that she isn't done trying to give Gracie a brother or sister.
Showing gratitude to her fans for their “prayers & positive energy,” Otis wrote:
“We have to wait a cycle before trying again, but I am on a mission to make Gracie a big sis now. …has this happened to anyone else where you go through a loss & then all you want – the only healing thought – is to become pregnant with a healthy pregnancy?!
"This happened to me after our sweet Johnathan & the same feelings have come back."
Johnathan is the name Jamie and Doug gave their son who they lost after Otis was pregnant with him for four months.
They honored him in moving fashion about a year later.
Otis concluded her latest post by thanking her fans as follows:
“I feel like I have a million sisters/friends who i call my ‘frans’ right here & I appreciate you, your prayers, your thoughts & words of love for me & my little family more than you’ll ever know!”
We send our thoughts and prayers to Otis and Hehner.