Angelina Jolie is making it clear ...
She has not been having a good time in the year since she filed for divorce from Brad Pitt.
To hear her tell it, she's not just experiencing the typical heartache that comes from such a significant split.
No, the aftermath of this divorce is darn near tearing her apart.
In an interview with Vanity Fair published in July, Angelina said said that she and her children have been going through "the hardest time," and "we're just kind of coming up for air."
Not only that, but "We're all trying to do our best to heal our family."
She also revealed that in the months before she filed for divorce, "things got bad" -- but she corrected herself, saying "things became difficult," because she "didn't want to use that word."
What's the big difference between saying things were "bad" and things "became difficult"?
We're not sure, but it seems significant to her -- and she made it clear that things were both bad and difficult by hinting at some traumatic events that led to the divorce.
"We're all just healing from the events that led to the filing," she explained. "They're not healing from divorce."
"They're healing from some ... from life, from things in life."
Do you kind of wish that she'd either actually talk about what happened or hush about it?
But in a new interview Angelina did, this one with the Sunday Telegraph, she's still being vague -- but by piecing together these quotes with the Vanity Fair ones, we might be getting an accurate picture of what went down.
About the divorce, she says "Sometimes maybe it appears I am pulling it all together. But really I am just trying to get through my days."
"I don't enjoy being single. It's not something I wanted. There's nothing nice about it. It's just hard."
So it really sounds like she felt she had no other choice but to divorce Brad, right?
In the few interviews she's done in which she mentions Brad and their breakup, she really does sound miserable -- he must have really done something she felt he couldn't come back from.
In this interview, Angie goes on to say that "Emotionally it's been a very difficult year."
"And I have some other health issues. So my health is something I have to monitor."
In the past year, she's said that she developed hypertension and Bell's Palsy, thanks to all the stress. So yeah, it makes sense that she's having to keep a close eye on things.
"I feel sometimes that my body has taken a hit," she says, "but I try to laugh as much as possible."
"We tend to get so stressed that our children feel our stress when they need to feel our joy. Even if you are going through chemo, you need to find the ability to love and laugh."
"It may sound like a postcard," she adds, "but it's true."
In trying to find that joy and all that love and laughter, she's put aside her film career for the moment, and instead she's been "going to cooking classes."
"Cooking is one of those things you do when you are settled in your life and you can take the time," she explains. "But somehow I am just very impatient and I am a little bit erratic."
"But I am getting into it now. I feel like, if I cook, the kids can all hang out. Although they often take over and tell me that they can do it better."
Angelina goes on to say that, at this point in time, "I need to rediscover a little bit of the old me. I think we lose our way a bit."
"I have had a lot happen in my life, from certain people passing to health issues to raising the children. And it's been a very good time to absorb and develop and grow."
"But maybe now that my kids are growing up I am starting to realize that my own sense of play has been put on hold for a while," she says.
"And maybe them hitting their teens is going to bring out a little more fun in Mom. So maybe I am going back. It may be time."
It sounds like she's still reeling from the divorce, which is understandable, but also like she's ready to move on to a newer, better phase of life.
Best of luck, lady!