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Holly Madison’s Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny is the gift that keeps on giving.

As for the man she used to date, who inspired the memoir, he was the punishment that kept on taking. Her decency, respect and emotions.

Holly and Hef

"I’ve gotten offers for book deals before, especially right after I left the Playboy mansion," Holly said of why she’s coming out with this now.

"But I didn’t want to do it because I didn’t want to do just a tell-all. I wanted this to be my life story, what I’ve learned and where I’ve gone."

Where she’s gone is a dark, dark place.

"The sex was very routine, and something I don’t think any of the girls really enjoyed," Holly says of the physical act of doing Hugh Hefner.

"We just wanted to get it over with."

"I just wasn’t into the group aspect," she adds of his frequent, sick orgies. "It was embarrassing, and wasn’t something I would typically do in bed."

Not that he thought about that. At all.

"I don’t think he cared if we enjoyed sex. I don’t think he cared about my happiness at all. He cared about his own happiness, nothing more.

"And he believed," she laments, "that all a pretty young girl could possibly want from life was a little bit of money and a little bit of fame.”

Holly has made references to how miserable Hugh Hefner is in bed before, and how he tried to literally buy her after she broke it off.

Some, such as Kendra Wilkinson, have routinely and aggressively defended Hef, casting Holly as a failed gold-digger and sellout.

In any case, she’s not slowing down in her mission to finally be heard – and generate sales – regarding her Playboy Mansion horrors.