Former NFL star Hank Baskett is opening up more about the sex scandal that nearly torpedoed his marriage to Kendra Wilkinson last year.
He says drinking, drugs and depression led him down the dark road that ended with him getting fondled by Ava London at her apartment.
(And shamelessly milking this personal and marital drama for more than a year and several reality shows, but that's just Kendra for you.)
Hank, whose NFL career began promisingly but ended in 2011, was lost. Adrift. Rudderless. Unmoored without football, even with his "tight end."
We're talking about Kendra. But seriously folks.
To cope with the pain, uncertainty and perception of failure, he turned to alcohol and drugs - a pattern that nearly tore his family apart.
"The stress and depression started eating away at me," Baskett tells People. "I fell into what happens to a lot of professional athletes."
"It hit me, and it hit hard. My biggest insecurity was looking like a failure. I made it to the NFL, I was a smart kid, I was the A student."
The father of Hank IV, 5, and Alijah, 1, was on antidepressants and he had started using recreational drugs and alcohol as a crutch.
Needless to say, this did not help matters.
"I was drinking like I had never drank before," says Baskett, who says he would even cry in the shower or shake from severe anxiety.
"And I was buying weed here and there," he admits, but that "wasn't to get high or baked out of my mind. It was to calm my stress."
In mid-2014, Wilkinson was pregnant when reports of Hank hooking up with a transgender model broke, which totally blindsided her.
Looking back, however, she says, "there were so many red flags. Before football, he was alive. After, he'd walk around in a daze."
As far as the sex scandal, it was an attempt to buy weed that went horribly awry, claims Baskett (who thought she was all woman FYI).
"I put myself in a bad situation, whether I was battling depression or not," says Hank, who denies he participated in any hand jobs.
Orgasming with women with penises or not, WE tv's Kendra on Top and Marriage Boot Camp have both documented the fallout.
Wilkinson and Baskett are rebuilding their marriage and moving on, "in a better place, but we still have room to grow," K-Dubs says.
Hank is now co-owner of video game company Gaems, he tells People, and that has helped him overcome depression and anxiety.
"I see what my path is now," says Baskett. "I'm not wandering around aimlessly. I have a career. And my family is complete."