Seven years after Jodi Arias killed Travis Alexander, a crime for which she was convicted of murder, she continues to insist that she was the real victim.
At her sentencing hearing, she defiantly placed the blame on Alexander, her ex-boyfriend who she accuses of mentally and physically abusive behavior.
“I had to fight for my life!” she told the judge moments before her sentencing.
“I kept his skeletons in the closet all to my own detriment for years,” she said. “What I testified to was not false … when I was on the stand I told the truth."
“I do remember the moment when the knife went into Travis’ throat ... he was still trying to attack me. It was I who was trying to get away not Travis and I finally did.”
“Maybe I wasn’t as badly abused as Travis and his siblings were by his parents. I didn’t consider being beaten and hit abuse, that was discipline in my family."
"I understand now that was abuse," she went on in her bizarre rant. "For [Travis Alexander’s sister] Samantha to say that I was not a victim of abuse is wrong.”
Still, Arias claimed, “I’m truly disgusted and repulsed with myself ... I’m glorified because of what I did and I wish there was some way I could take it back.”
While Arias avoided the death penalty earlier, she has mixed feelings.
"It’s my firm belief that death would bring me untold personal freedom," she said of wanting to be executed, "and for years that’s exactly what I wanted.”
“I realized how selfish it would be for me to escape accountability for this mess ... [my family] would suffer if I begged for the death penalty and then got it.”
It is widely believed that Arias contemplated suicide at one point.
Judge Sherry Stephens was unmoved, sentencing Arias to life in prison without the possibility of parole. Arias has 20 days to file notice of an appeal.
Discussing aggravating factors involved in her decision, Stephens said, the crime “was especially cruel [and] involved substantial planning and preparation.”
Arias, she said, not only brutally killed Alexander, but “destroyed evidence of the crime scene … [and] went to great lengths to conceal her involvement.”
Despite Jodi's clear “mental health issues,” she said, the “mitigation presented is not sufficiently substantiated. A natural life sentence is appropriate.”