Holly Madison Book Reveals "Nightmare" Life in Playboy Mansion

Holly Madison is famous for dropping her pants and top in Playboy and for its founder, Hugh Hefner, with whom she was involved romantically for years.

Now the 35-year-old bombshell is dropping bombshells of her own about her time with the man and his legendary magazine empire in a new memoir.

Titled Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, Holly's book talks about life in the Playboy Mansion.

It was a life that was not at all not what it might have seemed to viewers of The Girls Next Door, which featured Madison as one of Hefner's girlfriends.

Madison's seemingly fairy tale existence (if you could ever call it that) inside the Playboy Mansion was actually filled with drama, darkness, and depression.

"Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all, and quickly became her nightmare," the promotional material for Down the Rabbit Hole teases.

"After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide."

The publisher also promises to detail the "oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and [her] battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies."

Madison, now married to Pasquale Rotella and mom to their toddler-aged daughter Rainbow, rose to fame in 2005 with Bridget Marquardt and Kendra Wilkinson.

The trio starred as Hef's Girls Next Door, which aired for five seasons until it ended in 2010. Only now will she finally open up about those hectic times.

"I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion," Madison says.

"I think my stories will surprise people. I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life."