Tori Spelling says that her reality show is cathartic and jarringly real, and to understand her situation, you should watch True Tori online, not read the tabloids.
Having recently expressed her desire to continue the show without Dean McDermott, her husband who wants out ASAP, Spelling explained why to ET.
"The journey has definitely been cathartic for me," Tori says. "My husband and I have different views. For him, he kind of wanted his privacy back."
"For me, I enjoyed the process."
And the attention and money, some critics might say, to the point of ironically undermining the effort they put into making their marriage work, as seen on the show.
Tori says that public scrutiny is undoubtedly an effect of growing up in the public eye, but that if anything, the show is good for her because it's her "truth."
"For me its healing to be able to say if you want the truth, to know what’s really happening, don’t read the magazines or read the gossip, watch the show," she says.
As for whether Tori and Dean are at all concerned about exposing their four children to the Lifetime cameras, she explains the kids "always come first."
"If at any point the kids say, 'I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want to be on camera,' it all stops," she says, trying to sound convincing. "It all goes away."
The mother of four also reveals that the kids aren't allowed to watch the show.
"When they're adults I have no problem going back to them and telling them what happened ... they don’t know about the affair," the 41-year-old reveals.
"I want to be able to sit down with them at one point and say, 'Dad and I had a really hard year, we worked on our relationship and we survived it."
"We're survivors and we're still together and we're happier and stronger than we were. We documented our lives because we thought it could help others."
Sure. That's why they did this, to be altruistic and nobly provide a public service.
"It's been a great journey and I learned so much from it," she says. "I've grown so much from it as a woman and a mom and I have a lot more to share."
What does that even mean? And will she get the chance, whatever it is?
It's unclear whether the show will go on - Lifetime has yet to pick it up for Season 3 - or what we'd watch if Dean McDermott really is leaving the show.
Tori is all for it, however. She's made that abundantly clear and then some.
The Season 2 finale airs December 9, and in it, expect major breakdowns from at least one half of this train wreck of a celebrity couple. Maybe both halves.