Janay Rice, the wife of disgraced NFL star Ray Rice, sat down with Matt Lauer to discuss the shocking domestic violence episode that unfolded between the two.
Janay, 26, and her mother, Candy Palmer, opened up about the infamous Ray Rice video and the fallout that led to the star athlete's release by the Baltimore Ravens.
Two videos surfaced, but the first - showing Ray dragging an unconscious Janay out of an elevator - led to a modest two-game suspension for the running back.
The second clip, showing Ray knocking out Janay with a punch to the face inside the elevator, resulted in widespread uproar and an indefinite ban for Rice.
"I saw the first one," she said. "When I saw that, it was horrible."
"We just knew about it… we knew that it was gonna happen. We didn't know exactly when it was gonna happen, but there was no preparing us for that at all."
"You can't make excuses for anything, but we were highly intoxicated and in the moment, you're not thinking about, 'Oh my god, I'm on camera in an elevator.'"
Janay noted that she has not seen the second, more graphic video of Rice assaulting her: "I refuse. I'm not going to let the public bring me back there."
Before the second video made its way online, Janay raised eyebrows when she apologized for her "role" in the fight during a press conference in May.
Ray apologized to his team and the fans, but was not shown apologizing to his wife, something that further fueled the controversy surrounding the incident.
"I apologized for the part that I took in this, and I apologized because for one, this press conference was something the Ravens put together…" Janay explained.
"I was ready to do anything that was going to help the situation. Help the way we looked in the media. Help his image. Help obviously his career."
"So, you know, they told us earlier that week we would do the press conference. They suggested it," she added. "They basically gave us a general script. Yes."
"And that was frustrating for me, because obviously people took it as, you know, I'm taking light off of what Ray did," said Janay, who was his fiancee at the time.
"In no way. I was basically… not doing what I was told… but at the same time I didn't think it was completely wrong for me to apologize."
"At the end of the day I got arrested, too, so I did something wrong, too. Not taking any light off of what Ray did because I agree with everybody else. He was wrong.
Janay added that Ray recognized that he was "wrong" privately, taking responsibility for his actions numerous times when the cameras weren't rolling.
"He apologized to me more than once," she said, in defense of her husband.
"Countless amounts of times. I'm sitting there next to him, so I wouldn't be sitting there next to him if I wasn't the first person to get an apology. There's no way."
She said that this was the first, and last, incident of violence with Ray.
"No… no… no," Janay said of whether there was any prior or ensuing violence. "There's no way. He knows what he would have to deal with if this was something…"
"I'm not gonna sit there in silence and let something happen to me ... and God forbid, in front of my child. Just like, let it happen? There's no way."
The couple's daughter Rayven, 2, is another person that Janay is going to have to answer to in the future. She told Lauer that she will tell her daughter the truth.
"I don't think I'll ever be prepared until that moment," she said of explaining the abuse to Rayven. "But we're gonna be honest with her. You know, we're gonna tell her what happened."
"Let her know things like this are not okay. It's not something that she should tolerate. You know, let her know that people make mistakes and it's how you learn."
"People forget that these people are human," she added, tearfully.
"Everybody makes mistakes… everybody makes mistakes."
Ray Rice, who was reinstated by the NFL last week but lacks an employer at the moment, is eligible to sign with a team if one makes him an offer.
When and if that happens remains to be seen.