Jesse James: I've Started Life Over

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Jesse James' world was ripped to shred by his own doing.

It's been a year since an affair cost him his marriage to Sandra Bullock and fallout from the scandal upended his world, leaving him at his breaking point.

Jesse James Smiles

A 30-day stint at Sierra Tucson treatment center in Arizona not only helped James cope at the height of the crisis but shed light on his abusive childhood.

It was coming to grips with a life marred by anger, shame and self-loathing that helped enlighten James, he writes in a new memoir, American Outlaw.

"I always felt out of place my whole life," says James, who still felt unworthy despite rising to fame and success as CEO of West Coast Choppers.

"I never felt successful, never felt I deserved anything."

While he takes "full accountability" for betraying Sandra, "I'm moving forward, thinking clearly, becoming a better person... I have started life over."

James, who is now engaged to Kat Von D, says he's made his world better in the past year in large part by making his world smaller:

"I've made my world pretty small. Now I can focus on what's important: making sure [my] kids get good grades and are happy and healthy."

One topic too painful to include in the memoir?

Louis, the adopted son James and Bullock had been raising together in secret before the scandal broke, but who Sandra is now raising solo.

"Talking about Louis almost felt too intimate," he says. "He is so sweet, I miss him."

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He is shit on his own gravy train. How dumb is that?

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Starting over for the fourth time huh? Maybe it will work this time, doubt it tho. Keep starting over and maybe one of theses days you will get it right. FUCKING DOUCHE BAG #1

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Wow,
Just think, If he had been the guy down the street know one would have cared... I think that it is sad that people are so harsh on the internet and quick to judge behind the comfort of their keyboard, sad...
This guy has admitted to his mistakes and has made a vast improvment in the lives of his children by moving away from the "plastic" state. I commend Jessie on focusing on the most important thing, family. I wish you luck in the future.
I also hope that this world could be a little more forgiving and maybe a little more decent to one another...

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...ya started over with a new pack of tatted hoes. Kat von d is gross for hooking up with this guy. They both just look dirty, dirty as in havnt showered in weeks kind of dirty.

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Blah blah blah scum bag.