Jesse James is forthright if nothing else. In an interview with Men's Journal, he continues to open up about how he ruined his marriage to Sandra Bullock.
"I never shied away from anything I did. I took full responsibility," he asserts. "I cheated on my wife. Guess what? So do millions of other men."
"To be honest, it was unfair for me to even be in a relationship," he says of their marriage. "I sabotaged everything. I was never 100 percent in."
"I'm self-destructive. I made some seriously f*%ked-up choices."
Jesse credits Kat Von D for helping him through this dark period.
Jesse James checked into rehab shortly after news of his infidelities broke, a decision that he says changed his life forever, and for the better.
"I was an animal in a cage. I needed to escape before I cracked up or did something really stupid. I don't know why I went. I just needed help."
"I went into it thinking, 'All these people in this place? They are really f*%ked-up.' I figured out pretty fast that I was the really f*%ked-up one.""I realized I was addicted to anger. And it was going to be up to me to straighten sh!t out. My life kind of started over. I hit the reset button."
James turned to his friend (and now his fiancee) Kat von D for help.
"Back when I was listening every day to some new person say what a f*%k-up I was, I hit the wall. I had a day where I was literally wondering how much more of this I could take. And one person reached out," he recalls.
"Guess who that was? Everyone else thought I was toxic. The fact that Kat is willing to be with me now? And get demonized in the tabloids for it?"
"God, I really love her."
Helps that Kat's amazing in bed, of course.
But seriously. It doesn't excuse or change what he did, and he will have to live with that forever. But here's hoping Jesse really has turned the corner.