In her upcoming memoir, "A Helluva High Note," former American Idol judge Kara DioGuardi writes about her successful career in the music business.
But it's DioGuardi's personal past that is getting attention right now, as excerpts of the book have been released and they focus on a pair of traumatic experiences: molestation and date rape.
Of the former, Kara details the repeated actions taken by a family friend's son when she was 11 years old. He was in his late teens and: "On one particular day, he took me into the back shed of his house and put his hands all over my breasts and vagina. I remember freezing and not knowing what to do."In 2000, meanwhile, DioGuardi was moving up in the music world and went on a date with a "fairly known producer." This is how she described what took place after dinner:
"[W]ithin a few hours, he was on top of me, pumping, sweating, and speaking to me in Spanish, not a word of which I could understand."
Kara says she did not tell anyone about the incident because she feared it would ruin her career.
In yet another example of a harrowing personal experience, DioGuardi alleges that a "hugely successful artist" invited her to three-day songwriting trip. Instead of working, though, she writes, "the trip's activities consisted of watching Russian porn, scavenging around the kitchen for food [and] leering at two strippers... as they performed sex acts in the living room."
Still, the writer continued to work with the singer because she was intent on proving that he couldn't derail her career.
On the Idol front, DioGuardi says she wanted out of her contract because she needed the free time to get pregnant via IVF. She sums up that exit in the following manner:
"Leaving was painful and there will always be a part of me that wanted to stay. But my desire to be in control of my destiny was larger than my need to be a household name."