Lindsay Lohan on Drinking, Drugs and Her Downward Spiral: "I Was Irresponsible"

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"I was irresponsible. And I'm not making excuses." - Lindsay Lohan

Her youth, her absent father and her own poor choice of role models led the troubled star astray, the actress admits in a Vanity Fair interview last month.

In the interview, conducted shortly before she was thrown into jail and rehab, she says it's "scary and sad" that tabloids used to be her sole news source.

"I would look up to those girls, [Britney Spears] and whatever. 'd be like, I want to be like that. I see where that's gotten me now and I don't like it."

Not that she finds her past reputation entirely deserved.

"If I were the alcoholic everyone says I am," she says, "then putting a [SCRAM] bracelet on would have ended me up in detox, in the emergency room ... because I would have had to come down from all the things that people say I am taking and my dad says I'm taking – so that says something, because I was fine."

Except for tampering with it twice ... minor details!

As for drug use, "I've never abused prescription drugs. I never have – never in my life. I have no desire to. That's not who I am," Lindsay Lohan says.

"I've admitted to the things that I've done – to, you know, dabbling in certain things and trying things 'cause I was young and curious and thought it was like, okay, 'cause other people were doing it and other people put it in front of me."

"I see what happened in my life because of it."

Going to L.A. for her career in her teens, Lohan says, "These were my college years, but in the public eye. I was irresponsible. I was experimenting. I was doing things that people do 10 times more of when they're in college."

"I didn't have any structure. In the beginning, I had structure, and then I lost all the structure in my life. I think a lot of it was because when I was doing my first slew of movies, it was very go-go, and I had a lot of responsibility."

In what is actually a reasonable take on this, she says: "I think the second I didn't have [structure] anymore – I was 18, 19 – with a ton of money."

Largely at fault for her rocky foundation? All the enablers and leeches, sure. But most of all, that deadbeat jackass dad of hers, Michael Lohan.

"I think if anyone should be looked at medically it's him. He has such a big chemical imbalance at this point. The worst part of it is you turn around and you see your dad crying and normally you'd be, like, happy that your father's there."

"But then he has to go and do an interview right after."

Pretty much. Moving forward, she says, "I just want my career back. I know that I'm a damn good actress, and it's been my passion since I was a child, and I know that when I care about something, I put 100 percent and more into it."

"I want the respect that I had when I was doing great movies. If that takes not going out to a club at night, then so be it. It's not fun anyway. I don't care."

Sure. What do you think? Can she stay clean?

 

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Downward Spiral.. wasn't that my finishing move when i first tried out wrestling

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Namaste, The only excuse is these girls don't know that they are delusional. To much fame and fortune makes one like a borderliner untill the point of being a schizofrenic or manic depressive. It is not a healthy lifestyle they have. In the end of the career there is no talent left to work on. Only delusional mediacircus lifestyles. Ohm shanti.

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i think she needs to get help and u only see her dad when she gets in trouble

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Lindsay has lived in the fast lane,and has indeed walked on the wild side. With her interview to Vanity Fair,a respectable media outlet (recognizing past irresponsibilities) and touching the ripe young age of 24, maybe, just maybe Lindsay is paying attention to the outside world who still consider her abilities to
get straight and fly right.Hopefully,she will continue to keep her eyes open and her nose clean of the hangers on who enabled her past "irresponsible" behavior.

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you tell her @hollywood! 'cause other people were doing it and other people put it in front of me'. what a JOKE! she is incapable of taking responsibility for her damage! if she was experimenting, shouldnt she have had made a descision to stop or carry on? how rediculous

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I can't tell if she's saying her problems were only caused by others or just explaining some of the (valid) circumstances and also taking responsibility. It's hard to tell the article's tone or the tone of her comments. Time will tell I guess and actions speak louder than words.

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From the point of view I got from this article, I sounds like she is not taking responsibility for her actions, she is still blaming it on everyone and everything else.A lot of people have had messed up parents, and there have been a lot of young Actresses that have not let themselves go as Lindsey has. Lindsey was talking about if she was an Alcoholic she would have ended up in Rehab in a hospital I don't think she knows what Alcoholism is then because only everyday around the clock drinkers have the DT's, I have known Social Drinkers who have no problem leaving the drinks alone, just as long as they no they will get them sometime.

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I think that if Lindsey is ready to stop doing the damaging things in her life , then she and only she can decide to do it. We are responsible for our own decisions and the instability that some of us experience during our childhoods is absolutely the reason why we put ourselves through the things we do. I hope the best for her in life and her career and would definately love to see her back on top.

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Anyone else (besides the disgusting Samantha Ronson) over Lyndsay Lohan? I'm just saying, her movies weren't exactly classics and she is not remotely attractive any longer - which is sad considering she is still in her early 20's. On to the next druggie please!