Over the next few weeks, Fantasia Barrino has a new album and a new season of her reality show coming out.
For that reason, it's been hard for some people to not question the authenticity of her recent problems, which started with an accusation that she made a sex tape with a married man and climaxed with a hospitalization for a pill overdose.
But the former American Idol champion says she really did sink that low on August 9.
"I didn't have any fight in me. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted out," Fantasia tells VH1 in a new Behind the Music interview, which airs tomorrow, the same day her new CD comes out.
Continuing to defend her against accusations that this is all an orchestrated PR stunt, Barrino added:
"I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."
True. But you can ensure you'll be found before it's too late, as Fantasia did by texting manager Brian Dickens about 10 minutes after ingesting the pills.
Still, the singer - who reality show cameras have filmed alongside scandalous boyfriend Antwaun Cook over the last few days - insists she was upset when she awoke in the hospital and realized she was "still in this hellhole."
"I was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family – my father, dealing with men and their shit – I was tired," she says of the incident. "My head was hurting me. I was over it."
What do you think? Was the overdose truly a sign of Fantasia wanting to end her life? Or, we shudder to even think it, of her wanting to increase album sales and reality show ratings?