In a newly-released preview of his tearful interview with ABC, Jesse James says he still loves estranged wife Sandra Bullock despite repeatedly cheating on her.
Asked by ABC's Vicki Mabrey how he could cheat on Sandy, James said "it's hard for me to talk about, a little bit, because I still really love and care about her."
"I've spent my whole life with her, with the kids, trying to protect her from everything, but the most hurt she's ever been caused is by the person that wanted to protect her - it's terrible, and she's going to be hurt for a long time."
James said that at one point, he was so wrought with guilt, he was actually hoping he'd be outed for cheating with Michelle McGee and other gross chicks.
"When I was doing it, you know, one, I knew it was horrible, it made me feel horrible," James confessed. "And two, I knew I would get caught eventually, and I think that I wanted to get caught. I know for a fact now what it was, you know."
"I mean, this was me trying to self-sabotage my life."
James says he wants to set the record straight (about Nazi photos and such, not just Bullock), and that the public has been harder on him than Sandra has.
Other topics covered in the piece, according to the network, include James explaining his past, what compelled him to cheat on Bullock, what he learned in sex addiction rehab and what, if any, role he will play in baby Louis' upbringing.
Parts of the interview air Tuesday on Good Morning America, and the full chat on Nightline tomorrow evening. Follow the jump for a four-minute preview: