In an interview with Harper's Bazaar - her first since her brother Michael's death - Janet Jackson says she been unable to watch TV since he died June 25.
"It will drive you crazy," she says. "People can have rhinoceros skin, but there's a point when something's going to hurt you. Not everyone is stone, stone."
"I haven't watched the news in weeks. I had to ask my chef, 'How's Obama doing?' I haven't read a newspaper. On top of that, we lost a family member."
At times during the interview, Janet - who will perform a tribute to her late brother at Sunday's MTV Video Music Awards - was at a compete loss for words.
"My brother is, I mean was..." she said, shifting on the couch, staring at the floor. "You have to forgive me, because it's really hard to believe he's passed."
Michael was laid to rest last week. His death, caused by "acute propofol intoxication," has been ruled a homicide; several doctors are under investigation.
She did not discuss her brother's prescription drug history, but Janet says he seemed in good spirits the last time she saw him: May 14 at a family gathering.
"We had so much fun that day," she says, noting that ate Thai food and tormented each other. "We kept calling each other after and saying how great it was."
As for how she is coping, "I've been doing okay," Janet Jackson says. "Work helps focus all of that energy on something that is of value to you."
She says she was touched when Michael's daughter Paris Jackson, 11, spoke at her father's memorial: "I was so proud. People said to me that Michael's daughter speaking really gave them a sense of how he was as a father, in her words."
"Paris is incredibly smart; they are all so smart. She's a sweet girl. The kids are doing well. They're with all their cousins; that family love will keep them going."
Janet also confirms that she's split from beau Jermaine Dupri.
She doesn't know if she'll get married again (she is twice divorced), but as for kids, "I'd like to adopt," Janet says. "And I think that if I'm really supposed to have kids, it will happen, if that's God's plan for me."
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