Hayden Panettiere is "Tortured" By Fame, Fans, Paparazzi

Oh no! Hayden Panettiere is collapsed across a sofa, looking to be simply too weak to get up and carry on. Woe is Hayden. What could possibly be wrong?

She is just too gorgeous and famous. Boo hoo.

The Heroes star is so used to being scrutinized by paparazzi and overzealous fans, whom she says sometimes make it difficult for her to enjoy even a meal outside.

She tells Details she just wants to be left alone to live her life.

"When it comes to relationships, it's nice to have something that is your own and not everyone else's," says the I Love You, Beth Cooper actress, 19.

Hayden Panettiere says her experiences dealing with fame have served her well. "The more I react, the angrier I get, the more satisfaction [all the detractors] get. That's exactly what they want," she says. "[But] I [have] learned the game."

Hayden Panettiere's life is so exhausting and pained.

But Hayden's most trying time followed a domestic violence charge against her father for allegedly hitting her mother. That situation, she says, "was very tough, especially since it's my family. It's one thing if you do it to me."

"I get frustrated, but I can handle it. But when it involves my family, my friends, forget it." Panettiere's dad pleaded no contest to misdemeanor battery.

As for her own high school experience?

"I was tortured, emotionally," the star says. "Every time I came back from filming, I would be trying to find my way back into a clique. And they weren't having it."

Panettiere started her acting career in New York before she was even a year old. But with the early success came some amount of torment.

When she would head back to school in New York's Rockland County, her classmates often shunned her – and one even hit her, she says.

Still, she says she has no regrets about her atypical youth. "I never felt I missed out – in fact, it was like, 'Oh, thank God I'm not like that.'"