Singer Amy Winehouse has admits that her trouble with drugs almost killed her - and credits husband Blake Fielder-Civil with keeping her alive.
"I really thought it was over for me then," Winehouse recanted to the German news magazine Stern, referring to the night in August when a bloody melee left her hospitalized. "My husband Blake saved me. He brought me to the hospital."
The "Rehab" pop star canceled several performances after being hospitalized for what her rep described at the time as "exhaustion." Blake Fielder-Civil had rushed the singer to a central London medical center.
Within the month, Amy Winehouse's in-laws opened up about the mad hospital dash, and their daughter-in-law's problems with substance abuse.
"We are in hell," Georgette Fielder-Civil said. He added "People who take drugs don't care about other people but only care about their next fix."
Interviewed in Hamburg prior to a concert there last week, Amy Winehouse found the German reporter staring at the scars on her arms.
"Those are wounds, old wounds. You know. I wasn't well then, in August," Amy Winehouse said. But when the reporter asked if she was now clean of drugs, she snapped: "That's none of your business." Alright, then.
Just days later, the couple were arrested in Norway on October 18 for alleged drug possession. Guess old habits really do die hard for this crazy young pair.
Amy Winehouse also admitted the haze that life has become for her.
"Lots of times I have no idea what I'm doing. Not until the next day do I have any memory," she said. "Blake tells me later what happened. And then I'm ashamed."
Amy Winehouse said she's shocked at the situations she gets into - and says Blake Fielder-Civil often tells her what happened after the fact.
"I recently saw a picture of me when I got out of the hospital. I didn't even recognize myself," she said. "I believe that the pain makes me feel alive. Being willing to suffer for something means that I'm not just apathetic about them."